What is a blog for if not for my random fangirl thoughts …

I have been absent from my blog these days but not on purpose. I have been travelling and now ended up back home with a few pounds gained and less stress. But even before I got my gears back up for blogging, I was hit by two news from the K-pop scene: a beginning and an end. Both about an idol, the first one will begin a new life with the person he loves, while the other allegedly ended his life because of his one great love.

Taeyang of Bigbang announced that he will be marrying his lady love Min Hyo Rin and this would be a cause for celebration since he was famous for being a ‘motae ssollo‘ (or mo-ssol, a Korean slang translated into English as “single since birth.”). Not to mention the memes that would now appear due to his famous hit song Wedding Dress (about a guy who was friend-zoned while the girl marries his friend).

안녕하세요. 태양입니다. 오늘 제 인생에 있어 가장 중요하고 행복한 약속을 여러분들께 알리려고 합니다. 4년이라는 오랜시간동안 늘 한결같이 제 곁을 지켜준 민효린씨와 앞으로의 여생을 함께 하기로 맹세했습니다. 힘들 때나 좋을 때나 언제나 변치않고 저를 믿어준 사람이기에 이제는 그녀와 함께 아름다운 가정을 꾸리고 싶습니다. 그동안 서로 마주보며 다져온 사랑을, 앞으로도 둘이 같이 한곳을 바라보며 걸어가겠습니다. 저를 가족처럼 아껴주신 모든 팬분들과 빅뱅 멤버들 그리고 YG 식구들, 관계자 분들 진심으로 감사드립니다. 앞으로 더욱 책임감있고 겸손한 모습으로 살아가겠습니다. 태양과 민효린 저희 두 사람이 마주할 앞 날을 축복해 주시면 감사하겠습니다. Hello everyone, this is Taeyang. Today, I want to share with you guys about the most important and joyful promise I have made in my life. I have pledged to spend the rest of my life with Min Hyorin, the one who has always stuck by me for the past four years. Through all the good times and the bad times, she has always believed in me and now I look forward to making a beautiful life together. To all the fans who always treated me as if I was family, to all of my Big Bang members, to all of my YG family, to everyone I’ve ever had the pleasure to work with and meet, I want to say THANK YOU. I will continue to live my life with responsibility and humility. My hope is that you will continue to support us and give your blessings for our future ahead as a couple.

A post shared by TAEYANG (@__youngbae__) on Dec 18, 2017 at 1:07am PST

 

But this positive side of the K-pop world was somehow pulled down by the darker aspects of it. Kim Jonghyun from SHINee has decided to end his life and even left a message to be released after his death. The singer who felt he wasn’t good enough; the vocal who was suffering but we never knew how deep his pain was. It would be an exaggeration to say that his music killed him but it seems to be the main cause for his depression. There are no words to express how deeply saddened I was by the news. I may not have been a Shawol but I have a healthy respect for that group and their music. Rest in peace, Jonghyun.

 

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— SHINee (@SHINee) December 19, 2017

jonghyun didn’t hide his depression behind a “brave face”, he was open about his depression. he was always open about his fight with mental health

don’t romanticize his death

this is real life. he was a real person. he tried so hard.

— ً you did well (@pjmthelast) December 18, 2017

I just wanted to say that no matter how immersed we are on the K-pop world, we don’t know the half of what is happening with our idols life. They can choose what they let us see and what they keep close to themselves. We fans might have been part of writing the story of their music career but we’re only pages or mayhap even a chapter in the huge volume that is their lives. All we can do is cherish the memories that they make with us and continue to wish for their happiness wherever they may be..

Sincerely,

A fangirl